starving musician blows air hot. sizzle

• Got back to Menlo Park today. mom got dad a windmill garden ornament, a big cast iron sculpture thing for their anniversary. i think my dad liked it, but wanted something maybe more manly like.



• we watched syriana. dad got mad at my sister for her not wanting to bring friends to the house. they say she's embarrassed by our small house or something, compared to her friends' houses. which is pretty amazing, considering the size of our house.



• i argued with dort on saturday. she did not want me to help brian move out of his apartment. considering how much my body hurt after moving, i see where she's coming from -- that it was a big favor that i didn't have to do. i'd rather live in a world, though, where i can call on friends when i need them, like Dort's friends call on her. and i have eaten more than one good meal at brian's apartments. but is my self esteem too low? probably.
  
  I oughta read Da Jesus Book.



• montner pete played last night to a rad crowd on a bar's tiny stage. micah's new drum set, with see-through colored plastic drums, reminds me of toys I had as a kid. Tre put a noise-responsive lighting system under the drums to light'em up. Rush would be proud. Also jeanie said tom was being more outgoing on stage, a positive development. now to get him behind the mic (!).

legal daze

lawyers just *gotta use the bigs words:

"In making admissions decisions, the school gives substantial weight to numerical indicators... Yet numbers alone are not dispositive." - Boalt

here's a gem from the Complete Lawyer.com

"Lawyer Jokes Exist For A Reason -
Superior intellect or outstanding professional reputation are never reasons to accept or forgive bad manners or questionable social behavior."

i.e. just because you're better than everyone else doesn't mean you should act like it.
maybe the problem is believing in something like "superior intellect".

and there's your dose of wisdom from a hopeful law school applicant. (i'm trying to use more sarcasm).
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i did yoga for the first time last weekend; it was fun. i tried not to stare at the other people; the shirtless man next to me's giant back zit was one point of fixation
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i read carol's post about not being good at giving affection. flury said the same thing to me. i think i need to work on it too. but there's definitely more hugs from the San Jose crowd than the SF. i guess we're too hip or something, though i thought we were all hippies.

yerba mate, hierba buena

there's been an influx in maté consumption in my office lately. we're getting massive shipments of the south american tea from a consultant, who also brings his new french press. the water cooler conversations are getting more exciting.

Update: this stuff tastes terrible. the french press, which came free along with the mate, just broke. así es.

Mulan Rogue

CDs from library:

The Flying Luttenbachers - Revenge
pretty cool. i see where the No Doctors came from, with hard to pin down guitars and rocky beats. It could use some yelly mic-in-mouth vox though.

Philip Glass - Glassworks
eh...heard it all before...then it repeated itself. the "dance" pieces do a lot more for me than the ponderous opening tracks. i am so over this stuff. (except when Kronos plays it).

Jelly Roll Morton - 1923-24
ok pretty good but got annoying, all sounded same after a while, and a little too happy. it's him solo on the piano playing his jazz standards. i like the liner notes, talking about how rad New Orleans jazz is compared to the civilized Dixie stuff. it also emphasizes the importance of melody, which i'm working on in my stuff.

Some classical guitarist plays Vivaldi's Concerto in C and some other things with an orchestra -
The instrumentation alone turns me off on a lot of this. i'm sorry but it sounds so canned. at least the music is lively. Vivaldi is vivid, vivacious and voracious. i do a couple of his pieces on violin.

merzbow - dharma.
yeah, i vacuumed a couple months ago and though i didn't record that, or the sound of my microwave and static on the TV, i pretty much got my fill. this is an aural enema.